Aug 24 2008
That’s what you get
This is me yesterday (Saturday), a spur of the moment picture taken by my Uncle Jim just before I left to come down to London for the weekend. I am surprised that I look fresher than I feel because the past week or so has been hectic as fxxx. On the subject of music I am still loving Paramore (particularly “That’s what you get”) and Avril Lavigne right now and love singing along on my walk through town in the mornings. I’m thrilled that I have signed up for an 11 week acting course in town and have started speech lessons to improve my enunciation and breathing. Using my diaphragm more is great fun, but don’t ever ask me to sample ‘breath play’ or you’ll get my rant on my level of ‘BDSM’ lol!!! I do need to slow down and decide what my priorities are because trying to balance my social life with my working life and the various facets of that isn’t easy. My personal and desired priorities right now are to become a ‘proper’ Actress and get some work, do more fashion and fetish modeling work if/when it comes up, and to get as fit as I was last year. But I find myself getting dragged back into 9-5 and it prevails so much that I forget that I need to drink, workout more, eat and have regular breaks and that my health should always come first. I have been a right sulky cow to people lately who I know are trying to help me and I apologise for that, but my personal credibility is more important to me and I care so much about doing things right. I hate feeling pressurised and under valued when I once felt regarded for being talented and creative and was given time to do things properly. I also want to stay in touch with family and friends I had neglected for too long and I am glad to be back in London again, and will be down for the next two weekends. I am torn between wanting to be here and loving my home near Birmingham, so maybe I can do both and mix and match for a while until I decide. My Mentor gave me a homework assignment to do called ‘Female characters in Shakespeare’s plays- Do they get a ‘fair deal’ which i really enjoyed writing so it took my mind off of being tired and restless. I will write more about this in my other site Spanked at Home. My mum even noticed I was over doing things and came down stairs after she had gone to bed to find me still on my laptop after midnight. She sent me to bed, and of course I listened this time because I know myself that I need to sleep more.
I went to the ‘BBB’ (Birmingham fetish fair event) with my friend ‘Fluter’ the other day and came back with some new straps, a wonderful smoked Kooboo dragon cane and a flat wooden paddle that he bought me, so my cupboard is armed and dangerous again! I also signed up for a month’s membership with Northern Spanking, not least to see Pandora Blake get more cane strokes, but mainly to help Lucy and Paul who run such a brilliant and popular site with the most fantastic girls in the scene appearing. L & P did so much last year for the Bums on The Run ‘Race for Life’ Cancer Research appeal they set up and deserve your support as they try and rebuild after becoming embroiled in a lot of fallout from a well publicised legal case. These are nice people, so next time you are thinking of signing up to watch a few naughty videos on a late night with your JD, wacky backy, or ream of Buds, please join Northern Spanking to get real value, knowing that you are also helping a couple who dedicate their time to producing quality scenarios and material.
Some answers to generic questions I continue to get (thanks) in emails:
Q: What is your favourite implement?
A: Aside from a hand spanking my bottom, slippers are always good. Anything wide and stingy from an erotic sensation point of view. From a punishment point of view, I prefer not to know my fate until the lecture beforehand and the choices to be made at the time depending on how it is going. The cane is essential, sometimes as an ultimate if it’s given ‘for real’ but it always has a profound effect and reminder stripes are a big ingredient of the whole control and ‘head’ thing and why I do any of this in the first place.
Q: What is your favourite outfit?
A: I managed to tidy my wardrobes of fetish wear and bought a purple school uniform jacket and matching local school tie in Manchester last week so have so much choice now. I always love my Irish Convent School navy gymslip though because it’s very 1950’s and I feel like its ‘deja vu’ when I wear it in retro scenes I have done.



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